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scarlett1313 @ 2009-06-24T15:04:00

2009-06-24T19:10:33Z

i know --- my journal entries are really down to nothing these days but by keeping up with facebook (where i stay in touch with close friends and family), running my blog, and well....living life - I just don't have much interest in coming over here to update. So sorry for that.

Me and Ben will be traveling to the Turkish Mediterranean coast this Sunday for a week....we are looking forward to that because there isn't a summer here in England and I'm not going back to NJ until August 4th for the rest of the Summer. I am extremely excited about Turkey because we will not be rushing around doing site seeing kind of stuff...it will be all relaxation and hardly anything to do - that is what we wanted. I am such a city person but sometimes you just need a break away from all the hustle and bustle.

What do you guys have planned for the Summer? Let me know! I would love to hear.
Also, if you have a facebook.....let me know.

Best wishes to all of you!

scarlett1313 @ 2009-06-24T15:03:00

2009-06-24T19:04:08Z

If there is one person (or more) on your friends list who makes your world a better place just because they exist and who you would not have met (in real life or not) without the internet, then post this same sentence in your journal.

scarlett1313 @ 2009-05-27T12:44:00

2009-05-27T16:56:58Z

so yeah, i know i have been extremely absent and to be honest i don't miss LJ that much but i will hopefully get to telling you about my vacation in london and paris with ben's family. so without detail i will just say that it was a great time! i took a lot of photos will be making an album on facebook to share.

over the last few months i deleted over 800 journal entries...when i started deleting them i counted that i had 1902 entries and i now have 1098! while i was deleting them i was reading them all and i just cannot believe how life changes. there was over seven years of happiness, anger, sadness, excitement, and just life happening. deleting them was a great feeling - some of those entries do not need to be there. i have changed so much and for once i believe that it was for the better.

so i hope everyone is well and i will be here every now and then - if anything really exciting comes up and you don't see me respond in your journal - it doesn't mean i don't care, it just means i am not here, so please email me! if you do not have my email address, see my next protected entry/friends only entry to see my email.

xoxooo

scarlett1313 @ 2009-05-10T19:28:00

2009-05-10T23:41:41Z

i know it has been a month since i last updated but i just haven't had the interest and also because i spend all my blogging/journaling time taking care of my design blog - i love having that blog.

so next saturday me and ben take the train down to london (3 hour ride) to meet his parents, brother, and his wife. we will be there for 3.5 days and then we take the train to paris for 3 days. i am really looking forward to going to paris (though not into the french so much) - i am interested in seeing the louvre, effiel tower, arc de triomphe ,and some of those cute cafe's! i can't wait to take photos! the one thing i'm a little concerned about is the fact that since i have major insomnia and i need medication to sleep - i won't be able to take my meds since we will get up so early each morning, there is just no way that i can take them since i require at least seven hours of decent sleep.

there really isn't that much going on these days but i will definitely try and be more active here, and now i am going to go and try to catch up on some of your entries. i must be so out of the loop by now!

i hope you are well! let me know what has been new!

xo!

scarlett1313 @ 2009-04-08T04:38:00

2009-04-08T09:01:40Z

Well I left Newark at around 10:05pm on the 6th and I arrived back in Manchester at 9:30am yesterday morning. We actually got in a bit early and again, out of some amazing luck, the row I was in had nobody sitting in the middle seat. What is so amazing about that? If you fly an overnight flight on a B-757 with about 215 passengers - this is a gift from above. When I left Manchester to EWR I had the same thing except the other three seats in the row had someone in the middle seat, it was just my three that didn't. Thank goodness.

I was up for 32 hours before falling asleep at 10:30 [england time] last night.

I don't want to get into specific details about everything I have done but I will list them. ;)

- good restaurants
- family [including the good kind and the annoying kill me kind]
- shopping
- architectural digest design show
- relaxing [kind of]
- movies
- new music
- nyc
- philadelphia
- jersey shore [there was one nice day to walk on the beach in belmar and asbury]
- made a new friend
- new books
- new clothes

^^ so that basically sums it up without elaborating.

I cleaned my friends list off some more. sorry, I just had to.

I hope everyone is well and I will look at some more entries later on today. ♥

scarlett1313 @ 2009-03-27T23:44:00

2009-03-28T03:53:56Z

i had to share this even though i never thought that i was a good at writing reviews. earlier today i received an email from a member of yelp, new york the place for reviews about just about anything in your city. she has invited me to become an "elite squad" member. i take it as an honor because she took the time to find me [or someone else did] and suggested me to the main yelp in san fran to be approved. i don't get on yelp as much as i like to but i will find the time to remember all of the wonderful places i have been to in and around nyc and the country for that matter because you can review anywhere in the states and even in london. so, what i am trying to say is that i have a lot of work to do with remembering everywhere i have visited from restaurants to bars to bowling alleys to stores. today i walked inside the dream hotel uptown and fell deeply in love. what an amazing atmosphere. wow, good god almighty. =)

that is it. i hope everyone is having a great weekend.

scarlett1313 @ 2009-03-27T09:44:00

2009-03-27T13:46:21Z

16 years ago today I lost my grandpappie, the heart and soul of me.
I love you Vincent Salvatore forever.
06.24.1910 - 03.27.1993.

scarlett1313 @ 2009-03-16T17:53:00

2009-03-16T21:57:11Z

I am home! Arrived at Newark yesterday afternoon and oh man how I missed the NYC skyline. It was such a beautiful day so nice and clear where I could see everything from the Statue of Liberty to the Chrysler Building!

The only thing that sucks is there is no Ben. =/

But oh what an amazing feeling to be here!

I miss so much here it is unreal.

Hope you are all well. I will read entries real soon. ♥

YAY!

2009-03-13T16:13:10Z

So it is no wonder that 13 is my lucky number [though I've been skeptical in the past] - I was on the bus to the base today and I looked down at my i-pod and I was listening to the 13th song of 13 songs. Hmmm, so then I remembered out of nowhere that today was Friday the 13th and well then it was time for me to take my UK drivers test. I was very nervous and after many practice tests and countless hours spent studying...I passed! You are allowed to get seven wrong but I am not sure how many I got wrong. I got stumped on a few, so I am going to guess I got five wrong. Well, all I can say is that this is such a great weight off my shoulders!! I can now drive my new car legally.

2009 Volkswagen Jetta right out of Germany =)
The steering wheel is on the left as I did not want a UK right hand drive.

see more

scarlett1313 @ 2009-03-07T22:56:00

2009-03-09T02:57:47Z

Just got back from "The Watchmen" = A-freakinmazing. If ya love X-Men, Spiderman, and Sin City go see it!

scarlett1313 @ 2009-03-06T20:07:00

2009-03-07T01:14:04Z

From Yahoo. I love reading Yahoo's OMG No wonder they named it "OMG" - that is what comes out of my mouth quite a bit.

Which celebrity baby name do you think is the most bizarre?

* Apple (Gwyneth Paltrow and Chris Martin) - i love gwyneth and chris but poor daughter!
* Banjo (Rachel Griffiths) - ewww wtf?
* Bronx Mowgli (Ashlee Simpson and Pete Wentz) - are you fn kidding me?
* Jermajesty (Jermaine Jackson) - LMAFO! maybe he will get lucky and someone will call him Jeremy.
* Kal-El (Nicolas Cage) - Kal isn't so bad...i think of it as "cal"
* Maddox (Angelina Jolie and Brad Pitt) - not the worst.
* Moon Unit (Frank Zappa) - moon is cute but unit?? what is that? a part of a spaceship?
* Moxie Crimefighter (Penn Jillette) - Moxie sounds like a name you would name your dog.
* Pilot Inspektor (Jason Lee) - what were they thinking??? should just name him Delta so he could be called 'Del' or something related.
* Satchel (Mia Farrow and Woody Allen) - WTFH? named after a style purse? i have a prada satchel. lol
* Suri (Katie Holmes and Tom Cruise) - i don't like tom cruise but Suri isn't such a bad name.
* Zuma Nesta Rock (Gwen Stefani and Gavin Rossdale) - Zuma??? Montezuma?

scarlett1313 @ 2009-03-06T12:39:00

2009-03-06T18:02:05Z

If I posted my Daily Kabbalah each day that I get them, my journal would turn into an inspiration journal and I already have one of those. This is one is very important and I always try to live by but it doesn't seem to work too often:

"It is written about a famous kabbalist that on his death bed, all his students gathered around him and asked, "Master, please tell us, what was the most important thing you did in your life?" The Kabbalist thought for a moment and answered, "What I am doing this very minute."

What does this teach and reinforce for us? Thinking about the past or worrying about the future is a waste of time. It only takes us away from the importance of the moment we're in.

Today, continually bring yourself into the here and now. Look at life as if it were your last moment. Appreciate each breath, each interaction, each person you meet. Make the most of it!"

Meme: First thing that comes to mind:

I am not: hungry.

I hurt: when people I love are angry with me.

I hate: that I have regrets.

I fear: things that I never thought I would.

I hope: I can become a good mom one day.

I crave: macaroni and cheese too often.

I regret: too much!

I cry: when someone that I love hurts my feelings.

I care: about getting through school.

I long: to live where I am inspired.

I feel alone: quite a bit.

I listen: to a very diverse list of music.

I hide: in my bathroom and lock the door when I am pissed.

I drive: all over.

I sing: all the time in my head.

I dance: rarely.

I write: a design blog.

I breathe: the cleaner air since i moved out of ny/nj with all the refineries and emissions.

I play: many x-box games.

I miss: my grandparents.

I search: for inspiration.

I learn: many things every day.

I feel: out of it right now.

I say: curses too much.

I succeed: when I have motivation.

I fail: and so do others.

I dream: in movie form.

I wonder: if the camera I bought Ben will arrive before I leave to go home.

I want: to go snowboarding before the winter is over.

I worry: about my Saph getting older.

I have: a lot to do tomorrow.

I give: all I can.

-

Hope everyone has a nice weekend!
Doing anything good?

Author Unknown

2009-03-04T22:14:20Z

Wow, if this doesn't make the hair stand up on the back of your neck!

If I Knew It Would Be The Last Time
Author Unknown

If I knew it would be the last time that I'd see you fall asleep,
I would tuck you in more tightly and pray the Lord your soul to keep.
If I knew it would be the last time that I see you walk out the door,
I would give you a hug and kiss and call you back for one more.
If I knew it would be the last time
I'd hear your voice lifted up in praise,
I would video tape each action and word,
so I could play them back day after day.
If I knew it would be the last time,
I could spare an extra minute or two,
to stop and say that "I love you,"
Instead of assuming that you KNOW I do.
If I knew it would be the last time I would be there to share you day,
well, I'm sure you'll have so many more,
So I can let this one slip away.
For surely there's always tomorrow to make up for an oversight,
and we always get a second chance to make everything alright.
There will always be another day to say our "I love you's,"
And certainly there's another chance to say our
"Anything I can do's."
But just in case I might be wrong, and today is all I get,
I'd like to say how much I love you and hope we never forget.
Tomorrow is not promised to anyone, young or old alike,
And today may be the last chance
you get to hold your loved one tight.
So, if you're waiting for tomorrow, why not do it today?
For if tomorrow never comes, you'll surely regret the day,
That you didn't take that extra time for a smile, a hug, or kiss,
And you were too busy to grant someone,
what turned out to be their one last wish.
So hold your loved ones close today, whisper in their ear,
Tell them how much you love them.
And that you'll always hold them dear.
Take the time to say "I'm sorry," "Please forgive me," "Thank you," or "It's OK."
And if tomorrow never comes, you'll have no regrets about today.

scarlett1313 @ 2009-02-25T08:29:00

2009-02-25T13:34:19Z

Ok, i seriously do not know how much more of this I can take...just when I was starting to calm down from the last crash in Buffalo - - this happens!!!!

Turkish Plane Crash/Amsterdam

Yeah, so what the people on the Hudson River plane didn't die...they still crashed.
Buffalo on the 12th of Feb crashed and killed 50.

I leave from Manchester early Sunday the 15th and get into Newark at 2pm.

My heart is in my throat and beating so fast that I don't know how I can type.

I am officially scared.

scarlett1313 @ 2009-02-23T11:47:00

2009-02-23T16:50:11Z

This is from the Daily Kabbalah email list that I am. I thought that it was very true and inspirational.

Your soul is on a multi-lifetime journey of correction. The difficult people you encounter are sent to help you complete this journey. Meaning, every difficult interaction is supposed to strengthen and teach you something.

That annoying colleague you wish would be transferred? He's in your life for this purpose. That overbearing in-law you wish would move to another state? She's in your life for this purpose. Every single human who crosses your path, from your mom to your landlord, are here for this purpose of helping you learn and grow.

Today, change the way you see the "annoying people." Instead of avoiding them, or hating them, ask, "What are they teaching me?"

scarlett1313 @ 2009-02-23T00:10:00

2009-02-23T05:15:43Z

so i stayed up till 5am to see the oscars...it was a great night for everyone!
hugh jackman was spectacular! i cannot wait for "wolverine!!!!!" it's coming soon!!
i was so happy my kate won "best actress!"
i loved the musicals performance and when i found out that the amazing baz lurhmann put it together i was even more in love! he is one of my favorite people since "romeo and juliet" in 1996 and then of course "moulin rouge!" in 2001.
and what was the most amazing was the five incredible men that introduced the "best actor" award - michael douglas, robert de niro, adrian brody, sir anthony hopkins [whom i love], and ben kingsley [whom i love].
i didn't see "milk" with sean penn whom won "best actor" but i will get around to it. the people i know that saw it said it was terrific!

ok, i am beat!

if you watched the awards...let me know what ya thought. =P

scarlett1313 @ 2009-02-18T15:16:00

2009-02-18T20:17:12Z

I always think it is so cool when you are looking for information on something/somebody only to find out there is more stuff that you didn't know about. Like today, I was searching for the full poem "A Red, Red Rose" by Robert Burns and I came to find out that he wrote "Auld Lang Syne" as well. I always liked "Auld Lang Syne" a lot for some reason. Now I am looking forward to reading some more of Robert Burn's works as he is under 'romanticism' and that has always been my favorite poetry to read.

scarlett1313 @ 2009-02-14T09:13:00

2009-02-14T14:19:48Z

It is absolutely freggin amazing how I live in the UK now and my internet connection [provided by Virgin Media] is utter shit but when I am connected to my VPN with my US ip, the shit flies. Well, I guess this is why I am going to stay connected to the VPN for good instead of locally. Oh and might I add the reason why I got a VPN in the first place is so that I can watch my damn shows that I cannot watch here in the UK because there is a block on certain things.

Ok, vent done.

scarlett1313 @ 2009-02-13T10:18:00

2009-02-13T15:25:19Z

five days ago i made my plane reservations to go home from manchester to newark on continental airlines.
last night 50 people were killed on a continental airlines commuter jet.
i never thought this day would come where i am actually getting closer and closer of a fear of flying.
i thought that it was just worry for a few minutes upon take off but now the last few flights i have been on, i can't help thinking about while in flight as well.
with the way everything has been happening lately - i just don't know anymore.
it is so unfair - all those lives lost and so close to the airport. why does it always happen that way?! why does it have to be so close to safety?

don't answer these questions. i am just crying out loud for things that don't have answers to.

after crying now....all i have to remember how it was after 911 and i got on a plane two weeks later. everyone...friends, family, and co-workers thought that i was absolutely insane but i did it. i wasn't going to stop my life for anything or let anyone or thing ruin me.

Oh yeah...it's gonna be great! Cannot wait!

2009-02-12T13:25:25Z

anti-valentine's day? or?

2009-02-11T17:32:28Z

ok, ben comes home from work and hands me a card...it's a very sweet, oh so wonderful valentine's day card BUT he said that it is NOT for valentine's day, that it is for the friday the 13th. this february, friday the 13th is five years since we got engaged!

when we first started talking we both agreed that we were anti-valentine's but since another important day is so close to valentine's, i see where the lovey dovey cards can be so nice. i am a sucker for greeting cards...i love them! i actually sent blue mountain some of my poems for cards in the past but nothing ever happened with them. i did get a letter that said that they were wonderful and would let me know if they were going to be chosen. oh well.

so, the big gift was not just mine...me and ben had been thinking about getting a gaming system for a while since it had been so long since we both had original playstation's from like 1998. well, b brought home an xbox 360! it came with three games for now until we can go and buy some more! wooohoooooo gotta love new toys!

but that isn't it....ben also surprised me with something that was on my wish list.

this beautiful necklace from a local jewelery store called azendi that i fell in love with recently.

he has corrupted me!! when i asked him to tell me the truth if he liked valentine's day, he just gave a little smile and hugged me, so i don't know where that leaves valentine's day in our lives. oh man...

and i have a great and wonderful sore throat and 10x's worse the nasal drip that i usually have.

scarlett1313 @ 2009-02-10T21:08:00

2009-02-11T02:13:05Z

i hateeee when the guys upstairs wash their damn clothes!! the fn spin cycle vibrates the entire house, it sounds like a helicopter has landed on the roof! i have to bury my freggin head and close my eyes because everything violently shakes and it makes me dizzy as shit! their is a funny part though...when the cycle is about over...it sounds like the helicopter is leaving - it has the whole distant sound!

arghhh. i know it's not the guys fault but damnnnn it.

scarlett1313 @ 2009-02-09T19:01:00

2009-02-10T00:21:24Z

i have made a lot of changes in life lately...i have slimmed down my friends list and that is something i haven't done in so long. unfortunately i banned people from my journal only because i want my friends list to be even but i will un-ban them if they ask me to and they remove me from their list. a lot of people abandoned their journals or we just do not talk anymore, so i don't see what the big deal is. i deleted 95% of my blog entries at myspace and have made blogspot and lj my designated posting spots. i made one last entry at myspace stating that i will not be posting there anymore and whomever wants to know about me and what is going on in my oh so interesting life is welcome to come here and read but i will not add them to my friends unless i know them. i got very tired of myspace big time and i don't stay in touch with hardly anyone there anymore.

i have four blogs on blogspot and i am active with three of them. in the last six months or so i have found facebook to be a lot more personal and i have almost everyone there that i talk to in my personal life. i have a dozen family members and all of my closest friends are there with the exception of a few and i wish they were there too.

simplifying can be a great weight lifted from your shoulders sometimes but it can also make you feel a little off until you get used to the loss. not only have i been simplifying internet crap, i have been doing the same thing in real life. i will get to all of that some other day. things have been real rough here lately - i have had some mental breakdowns and went through some days of not being able to eat because of the depression. i am still on meds but sometimes i think the mind can overpower anything. life is forever changing and there isn't much that can be done about it or at least i think that too much of the time. i get confused way to much lately and my mind is in way too many places. sometimes i feel that i can't get through life on my own...i get dependent and i hate that as i have always been a very independent person. i miss a lot about home right now and i know for sure that i do not want to stay in england past the contract. we will either hope to go to germany or back home to nj or ny. sometimes things really are not what they seem. i know that is so cliche but that is why those phrases exist...to be used.

i am quite lonely out here. i don't live near any of the people/friends that i know and not having the car is a real pain in the ass but we will be getting it soon. and even if we did have the car, people are ultra busy and it is hard to hang out. things close SO early around here that i can't even go and sit in a book store like i did at home when i wanted to get out of the house. the shopping here blows like you wouldn't believe. i have saved a decent amount of money from my tax return so that i can shop shop and shop when i get home on march 15th - three week visit all over nj and ny! it cannot come soon enough. and there is more but i don't want to make this so long, i have already made it way longer than i wanted it to be.

scarlett1313 @ 2009-02-08T10:41:00

2009-02-08T15:42:00Z

Even though I can't stand Madonna's music for the past ten years I love her for every other reason especially when she does fashion ads. I just had to post this BUT also since I am a gargantuan fan of Marc Jacobs and a slight fan of Louis Vuitton I really had to share this:

The video is of Marc Jacobs at Louis Vuitton for the Spring-Summer 2009 campaign.

Here are so pics from the backstage:
*click them to see a larger view*

My DVR is ready!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-02-07T01:04:30Z

Guys tonight Larry King CNN....freakin breakthrough!!! Sarah Palin finally exposed!
Tune in at 9pm EST! The joy I have is unspeakable...my words are now lost considering this is what I've been waiting for so many years!! Bring it on!
The time has come to bring this bitch down!
Ashely Judd and one of my heroes Rodger Schlickeisen president of Defenders of Wildlife.

Our wolves, bears, and polar bears will be heard tonight! Rock on!! \m/

from CNN!

"Just a quick note to let you know that Defenders of Wildlife Action Fund President Rodger Schlickeisen will appear on Larry King Live tonight with Ashley Judd to talk about Eye On Palin -- our campaign to expose Governor Sarah Palin’s anti-conservation record.

The show will air live tonight on CNN at 9 p.m. Eastern/6 p.m. Pacific time, and replayed at midnight Eastern/9 p.m. Pacific.

Our campaign is off to a tremendous start -- millions have seen our video since it was featured on The Today Show, The View, CNN, MSNBC and hundreds of blogs and news articles around the country. Over 45,000 people have sent messages this week calling on Governor Palin to end the aerial killing of wolves.

None of this would have been possible without the caring support of people like you. Thanks so much and stayed tuned!"